We all have struggles. Everything seems just out of reach in attainment – health, wealth, relationships, courage etc., and what I’ve found myself intuitively doing is I tell people, in my storytelling mind, how I DID IT, even though it didn’t happen yet. It usually goes something like this… Random admiring person (RAP): “Oh, Vanessa, tell me how you got through this period of financial invisibility?” Me (Vanessa): “Oh I don’t know! It was so scary and I didn’t know…

Addressing your needs and forgoing your wants seems to be valuable the older you are, in time and space. And that’s because we’re brought up on Santa lists of wants, soon maturing that we no longer need what we want, mainly because we’ll end up having to supply it. Damn Santa. As we evolve, we tend to go back to the beginning, but with a twist, much like the infinity sign. The twist is, we have to ADDRESS our needs…

We all are a living experiment in fact! It dawned on me that where we’re currently struggling is where we’re researching – within. Our library is the center of our experience. Let me back up. I was thinking about the huge financial debt that I’m currently experiencing, yet universally not allowed to fix. Trust me, I’ve tried extensively. I used to be worried. It’s so big now, that I can’t contain that worry, so I let it go. I literally…

We woke up at 3am to feed our 3 month old. I got a solid 3 hours in prior, which is a miracle in itself. My thoughts go to how much time can I get between the next feeding? I psychically tune into my daughter’s and I silent agreement within my mind each night, which my little one is a participant in. In this agreement I *hear the times that she will awake to feed and try to sway the…