My Journey

My journey into what I 'do', goes like this, "I don't 'do' mediumship, it does me". That would sum it up perfectly, but since you're here I'll elaborate a tad.

I deeply feel that Intuitive Mediumship chose me because all I really wanted was to not be so 'weird', the universe does have a sense of humor. Throughout my life I was always the alternative one as there's many names for it like sensitive, emotional, learns 'differently', strange... basically I couldn't ever conform to the norm as I've tried and failed miserably. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't a complete weirdo as I had to balance my talents (I used to see them as curses) with charm and exuberance. Since my life was interestingly dramatic from day one, I realized I need to embrace me as I didn't have any other ways of acceptance, but my own. Now isn't that lucky, I just skipped past 1/4 of wasting my life thinking I need others to accept me, sweeeettttt. As this experience of having day in and day out of nonacceptance, granted me permission to accept me just like I am. As this is a life long challenge it definitely get's easier each time I run around that track. :). So as life handed me so many experiences to choose from, and sometimes I feel like I just dumped the whole bucket on myself, I was always conscious of ME and what do I want from this. Early on I (through a difficult experience) was aware of the power of our being. I realized that the human race could adjust their experience through thought. At the time I had no idea what I was doing, as that was the best part. I just followed my heart, not mind. I just allowed it all to be how it was.

When I was a kid one of my experiences was that I had high cholesterol, severely high. From screaming fits at the doctor taking blood then having to eat a Pritican diet while my friends are going to McDonald's, I'm forced to eat salads with Fat-Free Dressing. Long, long story short it made it a moment marker in my life. So after my Grandmother told my mother that I was going to die because the doctor called and my cholesterol was off the charts high. *Note: I was a super healthy kid prior to this, as no diet could/would change the 'number'. So overhearing that I was going to die at age 10 or so, I decided to ask for help. Not help from those in fear, but through the power of what created me. So as a 'weird' kid would do, I looked into the oven door reflection (I was standing in the kitchen at this moment), and I saw myself. I said to myself, "I'm tired of eating like an ant, and I hate Molly McButter (dehydrated butter). I choose not to have high cholesterol anymore. I will it to be." I continued to say, "that anything I eat will slide through my system and not get stuck. I'm wonderful and I basically approve of this message".  As I was just a kid I told myself that whenever I would see my reflection I'd think wonderful thoughts about myself. Then again like clockwork I got my cholesterol checked every month. Except prior when I was doing this non fat diet..., it did NOT change considerably. Then after I did my little visualization/change of feeling, I got it rechecked. "Hmmmmm", the annoying doctor said as he looked at my mom, "What did you do differently with her, as her numbers dropped considerably!" I piped up having elation, "I just thought differently and told myself how wonderful I am, and I also thought how all the food slides through easily", I said in excitement. Well let's just say I proved my 'weirdness' even more with that doctor. But in this moment I knew, the power of the human spirit. It's not to rid yourself of dis-ease, it's to rid your thoughts of being unacceptable and open your heart to allowance. That's how  miracles happen. Just as a kid who thought once about how I have the power to heal, and then forgot about it (meaning you don't have to do affirmation again and again), it was just a choice I made and to support it I allowed everything to be exactly how it was. I gave myself LOVE through acceptance.

So what does this have to do with Mediumship, well this is one of the places from where it started. I started to listen to myself, not the outside world who was feeding me nothing of use. There have been so many opportunities of growth and to see the truth, which resides in love that I just chose to keep my eyes open even through fear. I didn't have your ideal family life, or any fairy tale story, but in that I was gifted a BEAUTIFUL gift because everything else would of been taken for granted and never really known. Through hardship, anger, and above all suffering, lies the greatest present; the discovery of YOU. I thank every challenge, every fear, as it brings me back home. It welcomes me inside with open arms and a love that encompasses my entirety. So in these life experiences I evolved into what I 'do' today: Intuitive Mediumship.

From having near death experiences to having a head injury that crumbled up my physical life as I used to know it, I re-birthed again and again. I found that there were other gifts needing to be blossomed and in order for that to happen a part of me had to die. Sometimes outwardly/physically, sometimes emotionally, sometimes mentally. There has to be a death to be a birth. I finally discovered that, that could happen many times here on earth and it doesn't have to be dramatic. It's dramatic when you 'hold on to what is trying to let go'. That's suffering.

So for me my journey has been ever evolving, there's no end point as there was no beginning. It just seems to flow, just like me doing the Mediumship. I don't know when it started and I don't know when it will end. I don't know if I'll get better at listening or if I'll be doing reading for the renowned Psychics. All I know is that what I'm hearing rings true for the one receiving the reading. And for me I greatly honor that my clients would open their heart and family to me, so I can play Instant Message Operator for those here on earth with those on the other side. For me, that's the gift.